I’m motivated every second by my work; it doesn’t switch off – Sam Taylor-Wood.
Blogtober has been a mission and a half. Already I’ve missed two days and I’m currently trying my absolute best to get organised once more and smash the rest of the month into blogging smithereens! It has affected my already lacking social life in (I’m ashamed to say) a big way and I’m so driven to complete this that everything else has taken a step back (apart from work obviously and having some chill time with Warren) including my number one, original passion: reading.
The last book I completed was Dark Ink which was over a month ago. Usually I read at least three novels per month, sometimes amounting to five or six. The fact that I make little time for reading at the moment is astonishing. It’s not as though my current read isn’t gripping – it is about a serial killer, race, crime and most importantly, set in New Orleans (a new obsession), so of course I am loving it. Nevertheless, I haven’t had the time to put my all into reading more than a few chapters every night or so.
BLOGTOBER TAKES UP MOST OF MY FREE TIME
It goes without saying that daily blogging takes up a lot of time. I work a full-time job, of which is a thirty-minute drive each way on a good day. By the time I get home and have tea, sometimes it can be seven or eight p.m. If it’s my turn to cook (we try and take it in turns, but Warren does do most of the cooking), I don’t have the time to blog or read and so, blogging gets pushed back until after we’ve finished tea. Then, the rest of my night can be me glued to my laptop until bed.
I DON’T TEND TO UNWIND IN BED AT THE MOMENT
I try and go to bed at a decent hour on a weeknight because I am not a morning person. I don’t love having to get out of bed for work and I thoroughly enjoy my sleep and my bed, especially at this time of year. If I’ve been up all night at the laptop, I don’t have the time to then get in bed and read for an hour. I could make the time, sure, but then Blogtober would suffer which would make me even more stressed than I need to be – I’m really selling daily blogging aren’t I. Don’t worry, there will be an entire reflection post about my experience of blogging every single day for a month very soon. If I have something on my mind, it is a constant buzz of all the things that I need to do. I am very much a disorganised person who tries to be organised and then tries to do everything at once which means less winding down and less relaxation, ergo less reading. I do this to myself, so I expect zero sympathy. It’s just who I am, I don’t allow my brain to switch off much of the time.
THERE’S ALWAYS TIME FOR READING AFTER OCTOBER
Believe me, when October is over, I’ll be catching up on all the things that I haven’t been doing over the past month. I’ll be reading a lot more. I created my bookish list for autumn and winter (I thought I’d have way more time to read which is laughable now) which I can’t wait to get my teeth stuck into. Right now, blogtober is my focus. I set myself a challenge and I am seeing this challenge through. I want to prove to myself that I can do this and so reading has taken a loyal step back.
What passions have you given up to focus on something you love? Would you do it again?
Love, Faye xo