Being challenged in life is inevitable, being defeated is optional – Roger Crawford.
I can’t remember the last time I had a ten-day hiatus from this blog. It is my pride and joy and has especially been so for the past couple of months which is why I wanted to push myself to complete Blogtober, and believe me when I say that I am so glad I did.
If you’re sick of hearing about my daily blogging in October, I swear this is the very last time I’ll be talking about it because to be frank, I’ll gladly never say the word again (until next year maybe…). It was one of the most draining, exciting, hard pieces of work I’ve ever done in my life, perhaps apart from my final year of uni – that was hard work. I’ve very nearly completed the month-long blog experience before this year, but it was a completely different ball game this time around; the level of content has increased ten-fold plus and there is so much more pressure (from me, myself and I) to make new content that would entertain, inform or create a conversation that needed to be had. Doing that every single day whilst working a full-time job was difficult and so I thought I’d share my brutally honest thoughts and have one last rendezvous with Blogtober 2019.
As much as I complained about Blogtober towards the end of the month, I did reap the benefits of doing it. My creative levels were bursting with ideas, for a start. As soon as the challenge was over and I stopped blogging, I’ve had zero creativity since and no motivation at all to sit down and write another post. It was all spent up in October. The fact that I had creativity pouring through me after a full day’s work of writing, being creative and having to stare at a computer screen astounds me to be honest. It astounds me that all the bloggers with full time jobs do this day in, day out, whatever their motivation.
My views went up a heck of a lot. I’ve never had so many in one day, let alone one month. I am so proud of myself for nearly achieving my yearly goal of 10,000 views this year. It is absolutely miniscule to some people in the blogosphere, but huge for me. If I can achieve that by the end of December 31st, I will be one happy blogger. After all, this blog is my main focus above all else. Statistics and views shouldn’t be the be all and end all, but when you are surrounded by creatives, brands and the inevitable Game of Numbers, it really boosts your confidence when people take the time to read and enjoy your work. It makes you feel like you can go after that brand that you want to collaborate with and feel good about the amount of time and effort you’ve put into your work. Hitting those heights of views made me do a little dance every single day which was worth slogging my guts out every evening.
Late nights. Towards the end of the month, I was heading to bed at midnight and one a.m. on a school night; those who know me, know I love my sleep. It turned into fatigue which led to feeling sick and unfocused during work on a couple of days. It was at this point that I questioned whether it was worth it or not; I think I’m still getting over the lack of energy and sleep even now. It is certainly the reason why I haven’t spent as much time online during the past week. Even when I was off work for being ill, I pushed myself to complete a blog post. What would have normally taken me at most half an hour (if that), took me over ninety minutes. That level of commitment isn’t worth anybody’s health, but I wanted to succeed that much that I had no other option but to write as much as possible even when I was ill.
My social life deteriorated. I wouldn’t do anything else because I had a blog post to write. I refused to go out; I only saw opportunities as blog opportunities – photos, inspiration, the works. It well and truly took over my life. It makes me feel like a complete idiot when I sit down and reflect on the month because if I were reading this, I’d be thinking what a stupid woman (you can totally think this and I will be in full agreement). Everything was for the blog; it was all I talked about and it definitely consumed every second of free time I had.
Blogging every single day takes up time and so of course, something else has to lose focus for a little while. The main two things that got a little bit lost were my relationship and myself. Warren, I have to say, is a trooper when it comes to my meltdowns. I can’t even remember how many I had throughout the month and he got the brunt of it all. We didn’t really hang out as much; I refused to have down time until I had gotten a blog post done which took the majority of the night sometimes; I just completely shut off to get the job done. Warren was very excited for October to be over, let’s just put it that way.
As for myself – I won’t lie and say it’s been plain sailing up until October, however – I hit so many brick walls that the good probably doesn’t outweigh the bad. Seeing those words on a screen kinda makes me think what was the point? I am proud of myself and I think I had to go through this journey (getting deep and spiritual now) in order to realise that there really is more to life than this corner of the internet. I adore my blog, but I don’t think I’ll be making myself go a little bit crazy over it ever again.
So, there you have it. The good, the bad and the ugly of Blogtober. It was a rollercoaster which started off gentle and smooth for the first week and a half. After that, it was the worst and best kind, full of highs and lows.
Do you think you’ll be taking on the challenge of daily blogging in the future? I’ve written some tips here to help you get prepared so that you have a far better experience than I did.
Love, Faye xo